cherrie…my life in words

Wow, this is freaky. I didn’t even know Friendster blogs are so … sleek now had I not log in to my Friendster account out of sheer boredom. Come to think of it, the layouts and functions resembled that of Wordpress just a leeettle too much.

Even the themes are the same lor, albeit with lesser choices. Feels so weird blogging back in Friendster after all these while.

If all these changes happened 2 years ago while I was still blogging actively in Friendster, I think I might not have changed to other blogging hosts. Ah well, too late now, I’ve taken a liking to my current Wordpress blog. Am just rambling randomly here today to check out the new look and functions.

Check out my blog at www.cherrieluv.wordpress.com

p.s. I wonder did Friendster copied Wordpress or they had a collaboration? o.o

Over and out.

Blogspot gave up on her. Damn. She needs an outlet to release her tension. So friendster blog, here she is again.

Was feeling really down. Wondered if she did the right thing. Then, she went over to his profile and saw the ‘reason’ why she did all this. It suddenly reminded her why should she do this even though it hurts her inside.

She can’t be with someone like this. One moment he says this to her, next moment, he might just turned his back on her and says exactly the same thing to the other person. You have no idea how much it sucks seeing that kinda thing. To her, I love you is a very special thing. It can’t be said to two different people at the same time. It’s supposed to be one and only. So she made up her mind, it’s time to let go and move on with her life.

She can’t do anything now since the damage is already done. For now, it’s either friends, or strangers. It’s really up to him. She is also tired. And she doesn’t wanna see the other person’s picture and feels as if someone is squeezing the air out of her again. It’s really too much for her to handle. She fears a breakdown will happen.

For now, she’s contented to live in her own carefully protected bubble and forget about all the rubbish that happened. That is, until someone comes along and burst that bubble. Then you shall see the ‘tough as nail’ her breakdown. Hah…how interesting that would be. 

Shifted my blog back to blogspot~! I don’t like friendster blogs…too simple, too restricting, too boring, too blah~ And I always see the error occured notice which pisses me off.

SO, I don’t think I’ll be updating here anymore. My new home for my blogs ~> http://cherrieluv.blogspot.com =) Ciaoz people~

Today finally realised…happiness is actually quite simple. For me at least.

Little things in life that makes me smile or feel happy =)

1. Starbucks

2. Funny show on tv

3. Friends trying to entertain me with jokes when I’m bored

4. Playing games

5. Sleeping in my room with the air-cond on full blast

6. Blasting my hi-fi set in my room

7. Sms-ing with friends

8. A hug

9. Cam-whoring

10. Shopping!

11. Reading a nice novel

12. Found something insightful while surfing the net

13. Receiving funny or meaningful emails

14. Blogging

15. Found a HOT guy walking on the street

16. Compliments

17. Hearing my favourite songs on radio

18. When I get my allowance

19. Fantastic movie

20. Internet connection not lagging

From now on, I’ll try to remember this list whenever I’m not happy =) And of course, I hope I won’t get bored of things so easily and have a little more perserverance in life. Not to procrastinate so much as well. Looking forward to adding more things to my list of happiness. =)

Sigh…midterm’s gonna start soon. As in, REALLY soon. Now we’re into our 4th week of the 2nd semester, and our midterm’s supposed to start in the 6th week. And guess what? Our tutorials (which were supposed to start in the 2nd week) are postponed to the 7th week if I’m not mistaken. That means we’ll have to sit for our midterm without even attending tutorials. Study ourself-loh…Dotz…Oh, did I mention why the tutorials were being postponed? "Lack of venues" …or so they say… >.> If there are not enough venues, why chew off more then you can swallow in the first place??? Don’t take in so many new students lah if there isn’t even enough space for the students to study in! Yor…

So, now I have no choice…have to try my very very best to try and understand all the lecture slides and do the tutorial works on my own if I don’t wanna flunk my midterms…I can’t can’t CAN’T afford to flunk any subjects as I need all the marks I can get from course works (midterm’s included in course works marks by the way) because I have a feeling this semester’s final exams are going to be much tougher…since I’m already facing difficulties in my lecture classes…Takes a lot of effort just trying to stay awake in class >.< Not to mention I’ve got TONS of assignments which I have not start preparing…much less start doing -.-”

But apart from that, life outside campus is finally beginning to start looking better. Partially anyway. Will be able to indulge in one of my favourite hobby (read: shopping!) soon as my shopping buddy cum best friend is finishing her exams soon! Ah…yes, the irony…she finally finishes her exams and mine is starting already. Oh well… >.> Also, found a new friend cum counsellor cum entertainer cum rubbish bin member =D The mighty *cough*soh lo*cough* Phen~ Hehe…thanks for helping me solve my crappy problems! And teman-ing me when I’m bored too =p (And for whatever that I’ve forgotten to mention here…lolz)

Also, planning to take my undang^2 by this week. Itching to finally learn to drive and also because I have a carrot stick dangling in front of me. Hahaha…Hope I can pass it and successfully get my L license by the end of the month? Hmm…hopefully-lah~

Okay, probably should start downloading my lecture notes and print them out now. >.<" *shuffles away looking for papers*
Oh…and by the way, thinking of shifting over to blogspot. Should I? Should I not? Hmm…*ponders*

Sob sob…I’m sick. Guess it’s because of sleeping too late last night…haih…then when I woke up this morning, my head feels like it’s splitting open T_T

But then I still went to uni because we were suppose to discuss about our upcoming presentation which is on this Friday!! Haih…and I still haven’t got a clue what are we supposed to do. -_-”

Anyways, I really couldn’t stand my headache anymore, which by then has become a whole-body-ache…Went home just before my class was due to start. Haha…but feel regret ler, my friend told me the webpage designing was VERY hard today. Double sob.

Slept for 2hrs when I got home but still…my headache is not going away! Grr…don’t feel like going to the doctor. Now all I wanna do is curl up on my bed…my back hurts T_T I don’t even have any appetite…oh well, still have to eat abit to take the panadol…

I hate being sick!!!

我想，我应该是放下了吧。。。就连我自己也不是很敢确定是否真的这么放得开。。。往往就在自己以为已经放开了的时候，心里却又仿佛有点舍不得。。。

也许这就是所谓的傻吧? 明明心里是很清楚明白事情是不可能再发展下去，却又还是不肯接受现实。嘴里总是说做回以前的好朋友，但心里面却还是会有丝丝的不舍。。。

感觉上我俩之间好像比以前有点不一样了，说真的，还是有点怀念以前一切都很简单的时候。。。至少我应该没现在这么迷茫吧？

哈哈。。。无论如何，我真的很珍惜这份难得的友谊，所以。。。还是老话一句，永是朋友！希望这样会是一个圆满的结局吧。。。

临睡前忽然想到一首歌，我还蛮喜欢的。。。S.H.E. ‘爱我的资格’，写一小段。。。

"我是你什么人

如果不是情人

是不是不要再浪费

我的人生

你比我更清楚

你对我多好多温柔多认真

不构成爱我的资格

除非你

只看着我想着我只有我

爱本来就该独一无二

为你伤心多一点少一点

留下的眼泪都一样不值得

这世界那么多人

只有我一个人

能拯救自己的快乐

不要再为你哭了"

哈哈。。。好无聊。。。忽然间竟然唱起歌来了。。。啊，好爱睡噢。。。今天就到此为止吧！ 晚安咯～

I did something stupid the other day. Period.

I seem to be repeating my mistakes over and over again. Oh well, it wouldn’t be the first time I’ve done something stupid. And I seriously doubt it’s gonna be the last.

Ah…well, whatever…I mean…who cares right?

Finally got my finals results after waiting for almost 1 whole month…went to the uni early morning to get it but the office says it will only be out on the 29th of May…(grr…waste my time). Ended up checking it from the internet…waste time waste time waste time…why didn’t it show the results when I checked it at home???Somemore I had to wake up super early to get to uni for it.

Haiz…was abit disappointed at my results though I don’t have to resit any papers (thank goodness!).  Should have studied harder for my accounts paper…haiz…that stupid paper dragged down my CGPA by alot leh… T.T sobs…

Anyway, Monday have to start studying again…which means I’ll have to wake up early every morning and start to study study & study some more…zzz…haiz…hope that this semester will be easier to manage than the last one. Haiz…

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